Been quite some time since i blogged. Exams r just around the corner now n tests keep coming out. Just got my business statistics test and i'm really happy bout it. I actually struggled wif this chap - probabilty, at first but it turns out i got an A. It was really god's grace. Praise the lord! Haha. I always thought of going to the uni but it seems that it will only pressure myself so i decided nt to think of going into the uni. Just enjoy myself as much as i can n of cos, do study for test n exam. Haha.

Harry potter movie just came out nt long ago n i wanted to go see it but just couldnt find a suitable day to do it. Mon to fri got sch. Sat got cca n sun got church. It seems tht my schedules are fully packed. Well don really have much time for leisure cause exams n tests are coming. I failed my open book java test n nw the sch decided to give us another test which is closed book. I really cant imagine wad will happen n for my EIS test, i only just passed my MCQ test n nw a written essay test is coming so i really cant imagine wad will happen. Both my weakest module tests are coming out in a more difficult format for me.

Just had my s&w badminton tournament today. It went off really well at first until i met wif the former school team badminton player. I kana trash like hell, so i had to fight for the third place. This time round i met up wif also another former school team player, also very strong. It was a close game though and i lost. But this time round, i lost wif pride n i don feel disappointed at all losing to a good player like him. I got my rank "forth" in the class. It was better than nth. Haha. Was really very nervous during every match, heart beat go faster n faster during every match.

It seems to me like time's running out, having this n that project then test also. Yesterday de business statistics went on quite well. Wasnt as hard as i thought. However, tml de Eis test is the one i'm more worried. Got little knowledge for that module n tml de is a written essay test. So far our test for that module is mcq de so i just hope for the best.

Left woodlands church of christ for quite some time already. Yesterday when i on my way for dinner, i saw dean n john. It was kind of surprise to me, dono wad to say, didnt know that they came to sgp already. I dono wad to say when i see them, out of words. Felt kinda sad when they told me they have been trying to contact me through the phone but gotten the other church members gave them teh wrong no. So after the dinner i went straight back to the church building to have a nice chat wif my 2 old pal and of course, our favourite "Cut throat". Haha!!!

Anyway it was really amazing. Just the day before they're going to leave sgp n i met them. God's will huh. They have been here for 44 days n yet i didnt know that. It was a really disappointing matter. But well, it's better than nth. At least i got to see my old texas pal before they leave sgp. Praise the Lord!!! Seems like a very disappointing but yet touching story isnt it haha.

School reopen liao. It would means i need to face my java module again. Well still kinda worried about this module cause looking at hw others are progressing at a much faster pace made me worried hw i would progress. The current two things that i really wana do is to excel in studies so that it would no longer be a burden to me n to slim down n get fit. Currently i think the only two module giving me a really big headache is enterprise resource planning n java ba.

Well i just told my mum that i need to have my hair cut tml and her reply was so negative. I usually cut my hair in a months time but she should already have known but every month when i wana cut my hair she will like give me a "black face". Why cant my parents just understand me. Here i m already going to the cheapest salon to have my hair cut at only 8 bucks whereas others is like 10 and above. And the comments she gave is like "U don even look like u had ur hair cut" whenever i came back from a salon. I'm already in poly, cant i even have the freedom to do wad i wan??? This is really getting on my nerve.. sigh.

Hey hey hey!!! Today's HIGHTLIGHT, if any1 who wish to listen to PA youth co de recent concert de music which december 06 de concert, pls go to imeem.com and search for payco. Go to the first post by anne, music no. 2 to 12 is our concert music. Btw the pai gu is played by campus superstar mei gui wor, haha. Although no video but got sound la... haha. Very nice wor.

Hmm i went over to look at my friendster today, hmm... dono why only JC ppl attracted my attention so it's like i think most of my friends went to jc??? I nt sure. Jc and Poly, which is really better leh. No one knows unless we have a debate to fight for each type of education. Does going Jc gain more fame than going to poly? It seems so. Although by this year, there are many students who can actually go to jc chose to go for poly instead, even single pointer ppl chose to go for poly but it seems like going to jc is still the "big thing" among ppl nowadays. Hmm... poly is indeed getting better as time goes by. I think partly is becasue of my church also ba. Kind of find that majority are from jc or graduated from jc de. Top jc somemore. Lolx. Dono why sometimes this matter just affect my mood also. Dono hw to explain, it's just so weird.

Holidays ending soon!!! Seriously i don look forward to returning to school, rather stay at home and rot. Ha! Went to west mall with vian, na and the rich guy william. Lolx. Hmm we went to a chinese restaurant to have our lunch follow by 2 games of pool and lastly movie. The whole outing was really interesting and fun. Haha. N also thanks to william who treated us to lunch and swensen ice cream, haha!

Seriously i think i'm getting heavier this holiday and desperately finding ppl to play badminton with but couldnt find any and the holiday is ending soon. Kinda disappionted. Have been spending most of my time in church this holiday and also got to know more bro n sis in christ, haha which is a really good thing for me. I hope i can soon save enough money to buy myself a cheap cheap er hu and a music tuner. Lost my first tuner during my first pa concert and my mum refused to buy one one so have to use my own money. Haha. Hmm well i hope maybe a few years down the road maybe i can have a new cello too, haha. My current cello has been wif me since ending of sec 1 i guess or beginning of sec 2. Quite long le. Last time my bro de piano kept changing de cause that time our finiancial status was kinda good but nt anymore. Haha. Cant imagine myself keep replacing my cello one by one. Haha.

William arhx william arhx relax la. I busy ma somemore no chance to use the net. Just came back from CG17 retreat today. Well i should say it was much more better than i thought. Did get to know more church members which i think it's a really great thing for me. Super tired now. To think that tml i need to be in church by 8am, that's like too early for me, need to leave home at seven plus.

I actually thought of having our own church basketball team and during the first day of the camp, Norman brought up this issue. It was quite a coincidence. He mentioned "Ah Bong" asked him if he wants or not. But well, i guess now with me n 2 of my friends, we will have enough players for the team but nt sure if it will really be set up or nt. Also through this camp i actually got to know a little bit more about some of the church members. Dono why but somehow i agreed with hui ting that being in church is really great and i guess it became my "hobby" too. Haha.

Went to church today. Very quiet, lol. Wonder if it's because i too long nvr go chinese side le so nw find it very boring to go there. It's still so much better wif gab von vian n NANA lol sitting beside me. Actually i don like to leave church that fast de. I wan more fellowship wif church members. haha. But today my grp nt here sia so went home straight den nw nth to do, listening to my concert songs. Lol!

Btw i went back to payco today, lol. Very guai, didnt ran off. Hmm... i saw a little cellist boy who played cello since pri sch holding on to a score which i find it very hard. I asked him "wa u wad grade arhx?" n he replied "need grade to play de meh?".... if it was u wad would u think? lol!? But but but i think i improved a little bit le sia. lol thks to the church for asking me to play last min songs so nw my sight read got a slight improvement. A good thing to me. Haha

Just gotten back my PWA test, flunked like shit. I just cant accept the fact i failed. I really admired those who failed and could stil smile n play. If only i can be so positive. Since sec sch i always wanted to be the best but just nvr once gotten the first or something.

Everybody have something that they have to leave behind, there's no use looking back, so i guess i just have to look straight. Just couldnt forget the fact that i failed my test. Even if i pass the re-test, my marks will only be 50. Sigh. When i was seeking help from others, they told me they dono and stuffs like tht or i didnt study for it, in the end they actually got very high marks. It just show how those friends i know are. Some even shouted out "walau! i got only 79!". WTF!!! Cant stand this kind of ppl. And also watching myself always scoring lower than others, it just demoralise me. I want to be the best so that i can help others as well, i know ppl just wont help me esp classmates or seniors. THat's the reason why i wana top so that i can help ppl like the current me. Here i m already feeling very down le n there, i will be having a test again later. I just hope i can achieve the results i want. I don wish to see my GPA lower than most of my classmates. Since young i'm always the middle or sometimes even worse the last few. Nver once had i been one of the top. Although after failing so many times, i know the feeling of failing and how disappointing one would feel, but still as always, i cant accept the fact. Why i'm always nth compared to other ppl. Sigh...

I usually play the cello for one day and have to rest for one or two days cause of my fingers. Fingers kinda hurt since yesterday when playing the violin n today had to practise cello in the morning somemore. Brought my cello all the way to PA and because my cello cover de handle too rough le it makes my palm hurts even more, become reddish liao. Lol.

I was the first to reach there today and helped to open the room. Have already packed all that i wana bring to pa de stuffs le but when i reached there. Wad i only did was going through the 2 church's score with my teacher once and he went to teach his private student in another room liao. When zhi yu n diana came, they said they actually wanan leave before the orchestra starts and i dono why, i just followed, very eagered to go home also but on my way back the chairman n my teacher called me. I didnt dare to pick up. Lol. I feel so bad n guilty now. Sigh... maybe i should have stayed there but cause there was less than ten ppl so i didnt dare to stay also. Oh man oh man, just cant forget it. How can i actually don pick up my teacher de call. WA!!!! Stress!!! Can someone just tell me wad to do. Lol. This is the consequences of running away from payco. Lol!

This week, someone kept just getting on my nerves. Dono why i just don like him. ALWAYS wana be the leader, pinpointing ppl do this and tht, cant stand him. But from a diff point of view, wif him in a team, i can say we will sure be able to make our project in time for submission. I just don like him sia.

Went to study wif von n gab yesterday n gab asked me very weird qn when von wasnt around. Er HEM!!! IS something wrong out there??? LOL!!! Btw last sat was chosen as cello leader cause he said i played the best! Just when he said this, a girl walked in wif a cello, also 17 but she's already grade 6 or above i guess. There's just ths big gap btw 2 of us. Guess wad i can only do now is stay in strings hoping to improve and return to PA. By the time i really return to PA, i hope at least i can see some diff btw me n the others. My aim is to at least reach grade 5.

Was very frustrated wif wad happened in the night. Studying for my exam which will start in 2 weeks time n defragmenting my com but have to give up the com to my bro cause he wana uses it. I cant believe my mum actually stand up for him. I use the com a few times only in a week whereas he uses it daily. He uses it for watching anime n chatting n does this means this is better than me studying for exam???

This is so UNFAIR!!! I don wish to see results that's lower than the others. Just hope nth like this will happen again. Btw i don have any crushes nw hor, V3!!! V3 = vivian von n vina. It's getting closer to sun le. Hmm. hope everything will go on smoothly.

So long didnt blog liao. Haha. Since i last blog till now, i think my life really changed alot. Get to know more ppl from my church, and also a groups of sis in christ whom i feel very comfortable wif. Well yesterday i got to know a bro in christ who can really make those "ice cream" pie or something. A very funny guy indeed, he actually got my no. from one of the church mate and sms me saying he's one of my admirer. Lol that's so funny for a guy to do that. Haha. I went to have my dinner wif yvonne accompanying me. Hmm haha, praise the lord for finding someone to acc me to eat. I must intro all these new and great friends i knew in church to siu long and zong da. Haha. Btw i joined the NpStrings de cello n violin and part time chinese orchestra cellist. Haha. The strings cellist there are really great. They played cello for 2 to 3 years but i played for 5 years and their standard are much more higher. I cant believe it till i actually see it wif my own eyes. I guess i must really improve while in this strings and return to PA before the concert starts. I'm afterall inspired to be one great cellist. Haha. Something very disappointing is i quited learning piano when i was pri 4. I believe that's my greatest regret now.

Tml sch reopen le. This almost half a year de holiday sure passes realli fast. Many things did happen during this period of time but well, something i'm sure of, is that wadeva that had happened did make me change into someone better, someone who really look like a christian.

Tml will be the first day of the cca fiesta. Really dono wad to join. Joining more than 2 cca will only shorten my time at home as well as the time for studying. I intend to join the strings n CF but i wish to join a sport cca also. Really desperate to slim down that much but like wad some says, it requires motivation as well as determination. Did manage to reduce my weight by 3 to 4 kg but this few kg arent enough yet. What i really wan is nt changes in the weight but changes in the body. I really hates to see those fats in my body. I just hope i will choose my cca wisely b4 joining.

I just checked the time table just nw and found out that for this semester, my school ends at 4pm daily. Oh my, initially some days was suppose to end sch earlier but it seems that they changed the time table again. This is the third time they're making changes to the time table, dont even know if it's reliable or nt. Something which i may agree wif a frenz of mine is that when sch ends, u wont feel like going for ur cca cause u're already tired, u will just feel like going home. Hmm that's something to be taken note of.

I took the whole of march to slim down by 3kg. It was indeed a success but it seems that in terms of my body, there isnt any changes yet. After i came back from the cameron island n KL trip, my weight increases by 2.5kg. I was like HUH!!! wad the.. lol. It seems that tml will be an intensive tough day for me. It took me years just to slim down. What i really want is to become slimer and that no matter where i go ppl wont be saying i'm fat. It's indeed very diff, to be able to stay away from temptation indeed requires strong determination. Well, in any case wad i really want in life is to slim down i guess, i mean as a teen for now. Cameron island was quite a cooling place, the place there is nt as high tech but the scenery is really beautiful wif greenery surrounding u. The place is mostly famous for their strawberry as the climate is kinda cold there, they actually do grow lots of strawberries. And mind u, the shirts they sell there r 100% fake de. Haha. I went over to KL and the branded clothes they're selling, like billabong etc, in the shopping centre are like 100 to 300 rm. But i manage to get a simple design de FAKE billabong shirt at 15rm. KL is indeed nice. Btw the pc they're selling are nt as good as those sold in sgp. Majority of the pc de ram r like 512 only whereas in sgp is like minimum is 1GB. Haha. Sgp de pc is indeed cheaper n better.

Just came back from the FOC ( Freshman orientation camp ) for the poly de christian fellowship cca. The camp was indeed very much different from the normal camp i attended last time. To be able to share my views and thoughts with my own groups of ppl and to be able to hear others' views and thoughts was kinda interesting. On the first day of the camp i actually reached pasir ris mrt station but found no one. About after fifteen mins later a few of the members came but i didnt approach them as i knew no one. But through the camp i actually got the chance to talk to everyone and it was really cool. Haha. But well it was fun, there was even a rumour saying i fall in love with someone which was nt true at all, LOL! Due to this misconception i didnt dare to approach the girls. Don wana cause any misunderstanding. Haha. This camp indeed leave me wif a memorable exp and i believe i may join the camp again next year if god want me to go again. Haha. Tml i going cameron island and will be back on wed so i couldnt make it to the sec sch co de syf. Kinda sad. Desperately wana watch other schools performance. Haha!!

It's been some time le. Recently i just received many documents from ngee ann poly regarding this and camp. Kinda troubled by this camping stuff. Have this fear of camping since pri sch, thought i overcame it after i attended OBS but it seems that nth hav changed. haha. Yesterday one of my church members msg me asking me to attend the NP christian fellowship. Wonder why, the moment i received the msg, i wasnt worried or troubled at all but happy unlike the time when i received the letter from NP asking me to join their camp. I believe i would have a hard time getting to know my course as well as school de students since i'm nt participating the camp but i just hope it would be a wise choice. Sometimes knowing more ppl also mean trouble isnt it? Come to think of it, it's my 5th year cello-ing. I believe it's time to get warm up nw and get better. My initial intention was to join the NP strings to learn violin n co to learn er hu. Wonder if that's possible...

Sorry for having u guys out there to keep asking me to blog... lol. From nw on i only use the com once in a while cause i feel so bored coming online as i got nth to do. Have been playing my ps2 this few weeks as i hav just upgraded it. Got too many rpg games so did nt hav the time to come online also. Moreover my bro is like using the com whenever he's at home so i seldom hav the chance to use the com. Well, the o lvl results r out and of couse the results of mine just turned out so unexpectedly. Couldnt get into a jc so i guess god wanted me to go to a poly instead. Come to think of it, poly is actually better. It will be a new start for me as well as u ppl out there. God gave me ngee ann poly de logistics and i guess this is wad he thinks, suits me best so i hereby thank him. Thank you lord! haha. Np got too many cca n i intend to join sports cca to keep fit and slim down but it seems that the Np strings and co is attracting much of my attention also. Not sure wad awaits me ahead but i believe everything that i will be going through, is wad god wants me to do. No matter wad/who i face, god will be my strength and guidance.

Don really feel like blogging this few weeks, dono why. Maybe just don have the habit. Yesterday i went to andre's house wif kah poh and gabriel to play counter strike source. It was my sec time playing cs so was a real time noob. On my way home there was a uncle wearing FBT shorts wif a netball. From far i thought it was a young girl but when i walked passed, saw that it was actually a uncle. This was the JOKE of the day. I just sent my ps2 for upgrading and can only collect earliest by a weeks time. Wonder wad to do this few days. Jason asked if i wana go co tml but it's like no senior wana go back so i also dono if i wana go back. Still cant get over wif that "threatening" case. Good lesson for me though. Well just hope new games will be coming out for ps2 and nt just ps3. Two days ago i started to pick up guitar. Just kana interested in guitar and my mum wont let me have other music lessons anymore so i asked my uncle to teach me. Thought being able to play the cello would have already make my fingers numb in strumming the guitar strings but same thing occurred. My fingers' still pain after strumming and practising the fingering. Btw, i decided to go ngee ann poly and hope it's a wise choice.

Time passes very fast. Just when i realised, i'm already here waiting to get my result later. Wonder why i woke up so early today, couldnt sleep. I guess it could be because of the dream i had. I actually dream of getting 22 for my R5!!! wa!! Early in the morning when i went to find some CHRians at woodgrove and there received a msg from sch that only 60 got distinction for e maths n heard from audrey that 80% passed eng only. I wonder why, why couldnt our sch do better??? LORD HELP US!!!! I'm really afraid to see my r5 more than 16. ARHX!!! I don care if my e maths really cant get As but at least sci distinction n r5 16 or below. I just hope i could acheive this target. Three hours plus more to go. Wonder the others are feeling nw. No matter wad we scored, we still have to face. Actually i find that the most diff thing is nt to study n take the exam but to face the results. Sometimes results came out wif unexpected grades which we can/cannot accept. I hope no matter wad we get back, we'll still give thanks to the lord cause he will only give us wad we deserved.